Me and You

I believe the concept that others make us who we are. They teach us when to laugh, what people are good or bad, how important a smile is and who we want to be in the future.
There are times when I find things funny that nobody else seems to. In response to this I will make a single loud laugh. That's it. But on several occasions, seeing this reaction from me causes others to laugh. Laughter is contagious, as is everything else we do to eachother. They have commercials now where one good deed seen by another causes another good deed, which I believe is true. We are all connected to eachother in one way or another.
The hard part is that we are taught to be individuals. We are taught to come up with unique ideas and concepts, but these ideas and concepts come from what we learn from everyone else, so can anyone really claim an idea. Secretly I invented the plunger too from outside thoughts, I didn't steal the idea from anyone...but rather it came from the combination of interactions with the people and world around me. How can I even think to "be myself" a ünique individual" on my own without others around me telling me I need to do this. While I may be unlike anyone else, I can never truly be seperate from them.
mm...babble is good.
Personally I create relationships to see how they can further contribute to who I want to be. At the same time, I feel like everyone has something unique and valuable to them and needs to be cared about and thus I have a hard time being mean to anyone.
All relationships may be valuable, yet it's impossible to keep up with everyone. And not everyone wants to have a relationship with me, even if I would be okay with one with them. Also, some want different things from relationships...which I wouldn't want.
In the end, you have a relationship with everyone, whether you tried to or not. You look at someone, or you don't, how you speak to someone or don't....it all creates a relationship where you designate who that person is.
Being shy in this case, does not help. Being shy makes you sort of disappear, it makes you harder to converse with, it makes it harder for you to make the first move in a relationship, even if it is something as simple as saying hello. but every time someone says hello first, it helps take away that shyness...the hard thing is keeping it up. The more people who don't understand this shyness...the further into the shyness you get.
my head hurts. the end.